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Can't Die

by Chris Farren

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1.
Can't Die 01:44
Days go, days go by. Somehow I stay, I stay alive. I’m scared but I’m fine so I stepped out of line cuz I know I can’t die. I’m falling out, out of love with everything and everyone. I’m sad but I’m high leaving it all behind cuz I know I can’t die. I can’t die. I can’t die. I can’t die. I can’t die.
2.
Human Being 03:14
Friday night, I’m alive, who will I talk to tonight? I’m the shadow in the corner of the room. If I make a move towards the crowd they smile and they turn around. They’re not so sure about me, I can tell. You said these parties aren’t for us so why do we keep showing up? I said “it helps me to feel human when I don’t” but if I could be around you all the time I’d be content to just stay in every night I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being Later on in your fathers car we kissed and I could hear your heart, you tried to play it cool like no big deal. If my skeleton didn’t hold it in I’d fall in love with everything you said “don’t make it personal” but I did. If i could be around you all the time I’d be content to just stay in every night I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being My blood, my bones, my skull, my skeleton. My frame, my name, my heart can’t hold it innnnnnnnn. If I could be around you all the time I’d be content to just stay in every night I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being I just wanna feel like a human being My blood, my bones, my skull, my skeleton. My frame, my name, my heart can’t hold it in.
3.
Brighter 03:37
By the way, when you’re not around the sky turns grey, and the clouds fill up with rain, and the sun won’t show her face. And my chest aches with a dull and constant pain so I wait and wait and wait for you to pull me from this state. you make everything brighter it’s so much brighter when you’re around you make it brighter it’s so much brighter when you’re around and when you’re near the sky is shining neon, from earth to the great beyond your light travels on and on and my body soars over tree and mountaintop I’ll follow you without a thought anywhere that you go. you make everything brighter it’s so much brighter when you’re around you make it brighter it’s so much brighter when you’re around even when I’m covered up with dirt you could brush it off and make me work straighten up my tie and pull me out keep going ’til you get what you want what you want you make everything brighter it’s so much brighter when you’re around you make it brighter it’s so much brighter when you’re around
4.
Underneath the bloody moonlight I can see the clouds up in the sky, they don’t even acknowledge me, they keep on moving with the breeze. From the street as I’m driving home late, I pass by a million houses on my way. They don’t even turn their lights on or come outside to yell and cheer me on. Don’t they know? Don’t they know that I’m the champion of giving up?
5.
In the middle of the night I heard a cry You were sound asleep, I was too scared to look outside. So I tucked myself back in my bed and I tried to ignore the hurricane in my head. I need you most when you ignore me, I wanna be your everything Say that you want me. Say that you want me. I watched you get dressed in the morning You kiss me on the head and say bye bye So now I’m on my own again Why can’t I, Why can’t I, why can’t I do anything? I need you most when you’re not around me, I wanna be your everything. Say that you want me. Say that you want me. Say you want me and I’ll be whatever you need.
6.
I was so afraid back then I would lose my only friend when you surrendered to the devil that was chasing you around. We stopped talking for some time, I was destroyed, you seemed fine out late with your brand new life. I held my breath and prayed for mine to end. It was hard to believe anyone could ever leave me, now taillights quickly retreating are the only lights I seem to see. Is your heart still beating? I guess I was just like you cuz I gave up too, let the days just turn to months, avoid everything and everyone. Ignore the phone calls from my mom, pretend I’m busy writing songs as I just blaze away. Single player video games. It was hard to believe anyone could ever leave me, now taillights quickly retreating are the only lights I seem to see. Is your heart still beating? There must be something better, some place that I’ve never ever seen. Must be some sort of heaven with everything that I could ever dream of. Cuz it’s hard to believe anyone could ever leave me, now taillights quickly retreating are the only lights I seem to see. Is your heart still beating for me?
7.
I'm Not You 01:41
I caught you looking out the bedroom window again. It’s always the same view but you’re hoping it’ll change soon. I tried to make you smile. I tried a million times. You turned away and whispered “Oh baby baby what’s the use? Oh baby baby I’m not you. I can’t lift my head from this king-sized bed. Oh baby baby I’m not you.”
8.
Flowers 02:57
Love isn’t patient, love isn’t kind, but love will sure take you for quite the ride. Love isn’t heaven, love isn’t hell, but you’ll still get stuck there with somebody else. But don’t expect it to last the entire time we have, just be grateful you held it at all. Love is like envy, love is just pride, but it never feels evil, it feels good at the time. Cuz love is ambitious. It bounces around, and when it’s inside you, your feet leave the ground. Don’t expect it to last, don’t fly too far. Keep your hand on the safety cord, and you can land safely in another state, somewhere you can start again. Or you can just say no and be on your way, it’s not so terrible to be alone. Love isn’t heaven. Love isn’t hell. But you’ll still get stuck there all by yourself.
9.
The tables have turned and all that I’ve learned is I shouldn’t ask you to do anything you’re singing along with a new pair of lungs while I’m biting my tongue trying hard not to scream, yeah. I tried everything to make you happy I laid on the glass, let you walk over me why do you always look so pissed off? I gave you a branch but you wanted it all I guess everything’s my fault cuz I’m the one who broke your heart everything’s my fault cuz I’m the one who broke your heart and oh if I could construct a perfect world you know, I would start with yours but you said perfect isn’t good enough everything’s my fault cuz I’m the one who broke your heart everything’s my fault cuz I’m the one who broke your heart cuz I’m the one who broke your heart cuz I’m the one who broke your heart
10.
Cassie says I shouldn’t talk about myself the way I do, everyone is hurting, everybody’s got a job to do, so let yourself be sad tonight, tonight. Tomorrow when you wake up you’ll feel fine, you’ll feel fine. And if you don’t I’ll be right here every day this year, holding up your head, just remember what I said: baby don’t be cruel to yourself. I don’t know where I picked it up, I don’t know who I got it from. My mother always told me I could do anything and be anyone, so give yourself a break tonight, tonight. If you don’t feel better by the morning light it’s all right. No matter what I’ll be right here every day this year, holding up your head, just remember what I said: baby don’t be cruel, baby don’t be cruel, baby don’t be cruel to yourself.
11.
On the night you died I was still alive, I heard the news travel from the front seat and I hung my head and cried. I focused on the blue light from the stereo, and I imagined what it might feel like if I could float away. Out the window, over the Gulf of Mexico. On the night you left I was in my head, I was stressed out from an argument I had with my girlfriend. I can’t remember now what it was all about, I’m sure it started with me complaining about the way my life is now. Away. Out the window, over the Gulf of Mexico. Out the window, until I can see the light shine for me. We can say we tried and ran out of time, but that’s a lie and we know it. We can say we tried but we just gave up. You can only fall so many times til you don’t get up. Away. Out the window, over the Gulf of Mexico. Out the window, until I can see the light, until I can see the light, until I can see the light shine for me.

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released September 2, 2016

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